I’ve always believed in God.

I used to believe God was a separate being. A little frightening and very powerful.

Something I would never fully understand but that I had to attempt to please by following rules.

Something that could grant me wishes but only if I asked with the right words and in the correct tone of voice.

But underneath that, I always knew there was a power. And, 10 years ago when my life fell apart around me, I was curious enough to look again.

I wanted to know what that power truly was. Whether it was more than my small mind had conjured up.

To my joy and relief I have found God to be beyond description.

I found that all I had thought and believed was a very limited and human idea.

I have discovered there is a power within me, a universal power that I can whisper to, speak with and lean on that is more than I could grasp before.

I cannot grasp now, if I’m being honest. I can however get a sense of it. A feel for what that is like within me when I reach out.

I am curious to continue to see more of what this means and how it changes my life, for the better each time I see more.

I consider my life an exploration. I am exploring new territory every day.

Sometimes a part of that exploration is to stop and look at where I have come from and what I have seen so far.

Here is what I have seen so far;

God is a universal power that lives at the epicentre of everything.

There are no rules with God. God is NOT a being who judges what I (or you) am doing and decrees it right or wrong.

God is a beautiful guidance system, within each of us, offering nudges in the direction of what it is we want.

God makes no judgement about what it is you want.

We have free will. We have desires. It is not wrong to desire something.

I can have what I want. God will grant me that. I only have to ask, in faith, and I will receive.

I am becoming more conscious of what I ask for, knowing that I will get it. I will get what I ask for or something even better, because that is how God works.

I have been afraid, on and off, in my life of speaking about God. The word God, for many, comes with pre-conceived ideas, attachments and meaning. Most of which are not what I am pointing to or speaking of. For this reason, I often say Universe, Mind or Source instead.

For me, personally, those words are similar to hearing my partner being called Andy (he has always been Andrew to me. And in that name is all that I love about him, all that we have been through together). When his friends and colleagues call him Andy, I recognise who they are talking about but it doesn’t speak to my heart.

When I say Universe, Source or Mind it is liking calling God by a nickname. It doesn’t speak to me of all I love about God, what we have been through together.

God wakes up my heart and soul.

And so, it is God I am curious about and God I am exploring.

The Rabbit Hole will be taking me further into that exploration. Looking at what I used to believe, looking at what I now see and asking questions about what is not yet clear to me. As well as get clearer about creation: thoughts are creative. Am I mindful of that? Am I using that to my best intention?

Like the sound of this?
Then continue with me Down the Rabbit Hole, who knows where we will go!